May 12, 2010

Various & Sundry

Interesting link about how police in New York City are asked to cover up crime statistics; reminds me vaguely of how in The Big Short Michael Lewis points to errant compensation models as incentivising stupid behavior on the part of Wall Street bank firms.

What's interesting to me is how this mania towards measurement has crossed into so many different areas. With major league baseball and the growth of sabermetrics there's this drive towards greater and greater efficiency while ignoring the human factors that go into it. You see it on Wall Street where these investment firms went from private companies to public and began courting the quarterly statement. And now we see a police department in NYC cooking the books.
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Ran into a co-worker as she was text-leaving the building, texting on her iPhone while stumbling slowly in the direction of the exit. "Never text and walk," I advised, and she said that she's worried about being addicted to this thing, how tough it will be if she has to go without it. I commiserated as a fellow "creature of the grid." It seems like a large step on the road of dependence to go from having a boom-box that uses six D-batteries (which can be stockpiled), to these Apple and Amazon e-readers and smart phones that not only require batteries that depend on electricity, but have batteries meant to be irreplaceable except through Apple, Amazon or hackerdom. The road to serfdom it is I tell you. But no one's holding a gun to my head either.
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Enjoyed catching a bit of ESPN's coverage of the Tigers-Yanks game tonight. Nothing quite like an expansive view of a new ballpark, or at least one I've not seen before. I wonder if I'm the only one who watches baseball not for the game or players but for the scoreboard, surrounding buildings, agrarian field and basepaths.

Basketball I do follow, specifically the Cleveland Cavaliers in the playoffs where it's been a soap opera but with more ups and downs and far-fetched plot twists. Lebron James turns from Superman into Clark Kent before your very eyes, in successive games. His play is art, not life, it's a jazzy, improvisational foray up and down the court, and if the defense doesn't allow him some freedom of movement he simply passively passes the ball. He won't force notes, I mean shots. He manages to look above it all, above grubby panic, despite the circumstances. Down 2-3, they have to win two straight to advance.

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Took Tuesday off because I felt "in the groove" of yesteryear, those halycon daze of whine and poses. And for the sake of the cold. For it was only when sick that I seem to allow myself pure laziness, to watch fluff on tv, to cast out all thoughts of exercise, to eat indulgently of sweets, to maybe even sit quietly in the bookroom and absorb that most fleeting of all things: solitude. The fact it was rainy made it even better, for I had no shining hours to "live up to". There was no nagging you-should-be-outside-itis.

The last sick day I spent like this was likely just before Pope John Paul II's death. That Friday I'd called off due to flu and spent an a lot of time in bed watching the reporters watching for signs of the Pope's death. The next day I remember watching "Lawrence of Arabia", the sort of long-winded show that fares best when your attention span is longer than normal. I think I'll never forget where I was and what I was doing when I learned of JP II's death. Don't recall JP I's or Paul VI's deaths.

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A magical part of the day was reading a bit of the novel Prague, with its fish-out-of-water story that I so like. The typical American transplanted in Eastern Europe, with long David Foster Wallace-like asides which in this case included the protagonist's study of nostalgia.

Reading Rites of Spring: The Birth of the Modern Age by Modris Eksteins and feel the smarter for it. No twadling piffle, it's the vermouth of history books.

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I'm feeding a cold with beer right now, a gentle crest of Lion stout to be chased by a zephyr of Sierra Nevada. Perfectly civilized, if I do say. Moments of Lichtenstein...well I was taken aback again by Ps 42's "By day the Lord will send his loving kindness; by night I will sing to him, and praise the God of my life." And I took "day" as meaning when things are going well and by "night" when things are going not so well and I thought of how difficult it is to praise God during the nights of our life, but I can see how St. Paul did it so well, singing hymns in prison.

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I was always sympathetic to the view of a Protestant friend who said that Catholics use the Confessional as a revolving door and go out and sin immediately afterward. I was determined not to become one of "those Catholics," even though now I pretty much have. Now I wonder if that's a feature of Catholicism and not a bug, as they say in computer parlance. In short, I'm wondering whether we ought not be celebrating the forgiveness of sins rather than cursing our constant need for it?

I look back on my own past and see that the only unforgivable sin was sex, and so I was scandalized by the fraternity member with the cross on his chest and a girl in his bed. But didn't Christ hang with prostitutes? Was his sin so unforgivable or was it me that lacks "the long view". Sure he was greiviously sinning, but then so were the prostitutes and probably tax collecters Jesus associated with.

Jesus didn't seem to set up a litmus test and rank people but to win them - all of us - over. And he had the long view in mind; too often I look only at the short run and saw that guy as bad when he is probably holier than me at this moment.

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I was generally patient and cheerful with my boss this week. He attributed it, likely correctly, to the post-vacation bliss and he urged me to go on frequent vacations. Between him & the Darwins, I think I'll be ready every other week.

May 07, 2010

May 06, 2010

Quotable & Linkable

Came across an interesting link from the Undercroft:
Fr. Baker has a post today about liturgical silence, from which I've borrowed the image above. He writes:
I think there is a real problem many people have with integration of personal and liturgical prayer. It is perhaps easier with the use of the Missal of John XXIII and its silent Canon or the Byzantine rites when the Canon is in silence, the Royal doors closed and the veil drawn, and prayerful hush descends on the congregation.
I smiled, thinking of something that occurred in my delightful Greek parish a few weeks ago. In the course of twenty-five years of attending Orthodox services, in England and in Greece, what has always fascinated and beguiled me is that almost miraculous conjunction of high solemnity with an easiness and geniality that somehow never descends to irreverence. Well - I say "never"...
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My friend Arturo Vasquez has somewhere identified as a quality of "true liturgy" that it always "tells the story". I was thinking about Pascha and Pentecost (although it was still Lent) and the crowds milling in the street below that upper room, where "the doors being closed" the Glorious One appeared in the midst of his Apostles, or the tongues of fire descended upon them. Soon the doors of that hidden room would open, and emerging, they'd reveal to the street "He whom the world could not contain".

It's said that one knows an institution is in decline when its occupants have to be competent; conversely it's another quality of "true liturgy" that it works - it "tells the story" - even when it ought not to work.

May 05, 2010

More Cell Phone Pics from Chicago





Dominican Priest's Homily

Read the line from a hymn yesterday: "For the sheep the Lamb has bled." I thought how lambs are sheep, and so the analogy of God becoming man, God with us, is perpetuated in this statement. For the sheep, a sheep has bled! 

Then too the Gospel was from John where Jesus says, "Peace I leave with you, my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives peace....".   And the Dominican priest who gave the homily straightforwardly laid out three ways we have this peace. What peace can the world not give? The world doesn't assert that God has a plan or that our burden of sin is forgiven. The really important things, in other words.

The homilist's three ways of how Christ gives us peace are:
1) Freedom from sin via the forgiveness of our sins. We can shed the guilt of our sin by the price Christ paid. We don't have to worry about whether or not we are forgiven.

2) Divine adoption. We are sons and daughters of God.

3) When suffering comes we can know that God has a plan.
He mentioned how while training for the Dominican order, a fellow novice said of the fasting asked of him, "Hey, this wasn't in the brochure!" Meaning the recruitment brochure. And how often, the priest said, we see this with God such that we want to say of something, "this wasn't in the brochure!" But we can't say that because we know who the brochure of Christan life is - Jesus. And we know he suffered. It's all there.


Bright the light's new-fall stout,
bright the burnished volumes bount,
Drink the dust of centuries there
burn with patent leather flair.

Glancing rays off glistening jackets
dense contains their covetous facets
Drink the draught of rich men wise
Drink I through a thousand sighs.

Dear old Gladstone in his stacks
Upon my books his picture backs
19th century England fair,
21st century States my lair.

Dreams I dreamt when I was young
Dreams of books with tongues that sung,
Now I gaze on volumes rippling,
Shall I have some Yeats or Kipling?

May 04, 2010

Linkable

Want to get these links in my archives:   Darwin on the rural ideal versus the suburban compromise and Betty Duffy's response.   The rural ideal seems less and less appealing to me unless the farm is right by a church.  It feels like I've spent my life commuting and I'd druther not spend my golden years doing that with daily mass, if I had my druthers.

Quotable

Roger Scruton writes lyrically:
The elderberry grows wild in our hedgerows, and produces the fragrant flowers which are at their headiest on midsummer nights - exhaling the perfume evoked in Act II of Die Meistersinger, as Hans Sachs sits before his cottage, meditating the great problem which, in my experience, wine does more than anything else to solve - the problem how to turn eros into agape, how to give up wanting someone, so as to want her happiness instead.
Hmm.... I could wish the Holy Father had mentioned this in Deus Caritas Est...

The Hot Corporate Phrase...

...is best in breed. Our CEO uses it almost as often as dead people in Chicago vote. I'm sure Steven Riddle's heard this one.

Usage: "Frankly, our sales culture is not best in breed."

Frankly, this seems a step up from the impersonal "human resource" given that being referred to in canine terms beats, say, a mineral deposit.

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Let no one be slow to seek wisdom when he is young nor weary in the search thereof when he is grown old. For no age is too early or too late for the health of the soul. And to say that the season for studying philosophy has not yet come, or that it is past and gone, is like saying that the season for happiness is not yet or that it is now no more. - Epicurus from "The Letter to Menoeceus" via Steven Riddle

What Epicurus seems to point to is not allowing the good things of the world own us. When we allow them to get their claws in and was luxury becomes necessity, we've lost a little bit of ourselves to it. Think about it--how many of us now "need" e-book readers, computers, iPods, iPads, laptops, cell phones, and all of the paraphenalia that seems to accompany contemporary life...I'm not trying to say that all such items are worthless, 'but rather that we have so completely sold ourselves to them, we're no longer in a place that allows for objective analysis of actual utility. And I sit squarely in the center of that "we" and "us." I am not exempt, as exhibited by the fact that I type here on my laptop with my cellphone at my side and my iPod playing Debussy piano preludes as I wait for the three-second water boiler to stream water through the nearly instant ginger tea basket. All luxury that leads to slavery. Now I have to find some way of toting all of these "necessities" from place to place, rather than just going myself. Now I must care for them and must guard the bag that contains them rather than treating them like my suitcase (isn't it Iago who says "Who steals my purse steals trash?"--so too with my suitcase). - Steven of Momentary

We continually close our doors; we continually want to feel secure and do not want to be disturbed by others and by God. And so, we can continually implore the Lord just for this, that he come to us, overcoming our closure. -From “Benedictus: Day by Day with Pope Benedict” via BD

While discussing Absalom, Absalom! last night, Darwin and I were wondering if there were any great Southern writers from before the Civil War....Did it take the War to produce a specifically Southern style? Perhaps that has something to do with what Quentin Compson ponders at the beginning of Absalom, Absalom: that although he was born after the War and had no personal connection to it, just by the fact of living in the defeated South his psyche is populated with the ghosts of those who died to defend a doomed culture. - Mrs. Darwin at "Reading for Believers"

It took me so long to realise why so many writers are alcoholics: because they are scared. - author Alain de Botton

You should remove your hair shirt,
The plank in your eye, you choose
to look for pain
So you are less
saddened by the good
When good isn’t certain. - Excerpt of Betty Duffy poem

...thus the attraction of suburbia, which grants its residents a stand-alone house and enough yard to give privacy and some sense of touching nature, while at the same time leaving them able to commute to their jobs, belong to a church which only claims membership by a minority of the population, enjoy bookstores and ethnic foods and all the bustling variety which an urban center provides. Suburbia represents a compromise between our natural desire for land and local rootedness, and our cultural and economic desire to take part in city life. - Darwin Catholic

I will be cramming 14 weeks worth of stuff into 6 weeks, twice. I accomplish this by doubling the speed at which I speak. It's like attending an auction. - Professor Luse of Apologia

Only prayer is a cure. It is a cure each day, when each day the demons attack with fresh ferocity. It is a cure when my will is not enough to overcome fatigue, when nothing is good: “Let us sing to the Lord all our life, alleluia!” What the hell language is that? The language of the Church supplants my own. I need new words, those of my fellow believers. “The waters swirled about me, threatening my life; the abyss enveloped me.” (Jon 2:6) and yet, “From on high he reached down and seized me; he drew me forth from the mighty waters.” (Ps 18:17) I had forgotten. Even since yesterday, I had forgotten that the wind and sea obey my God. Sometimes I need the Church to speak for me, to pray for me, to save me. Sometimes I don’t want to pray; death is preferable. But the words read from the liturgy of the hours, other people’s words, the prayer of the Church throughout the centuries, literally saves my life. And then the magnitude of that universal prayer lifts me up. I am in awe of it: the idea that if I pray for the whole Church, everyone is the beneficiary of my prayer, including myself. And if others pray for the whole Church, I am the beneficiary of others’ prayers, even those in another part of the world, in other times of history; the Church eternal, the Kingdom of God, prays with me and for me. It saves my life. And it blows my mind. - Betty Duffy

It’s dangerous because it can create the illusion of understanding and the illusion of control. Some problems in the world are not bullet-izable. - Brig. Gen. H. R. McMaster, who banned PowerPoint presentations when he led the successful effort to secure the northern Iraqi city of Tal Afar in 2005.

May 03, 2010

The Big Short

Much enjoyed -- although "enjoy" might be a stretch given the subject matter -- Michael Lewis's The Big Short, which attempts to get at the root cause of the banking debacle last year.

I’ve mentioned before that the biggest shock of my adult life was discovering there were no adults, or at least precious few. Lewis mentions something along those lines with respect to the financial world:
“The big Wall Street firms, seemingly so shrewd and self-interested, had somehow become the dumb money… Charlie and Jamie had always sort of assumed that there was some grown-up in charge of the financial system whom they had never met; now, they saw there was not.”

Chicago Trip

Midwestern born and bred,
Midwestern I've been fed,
Midwestern, have I said?
Midwestern till I'm dead!   --
Anonymous
It was an idea born of a double-shot of Jameson after beer pong at the local Delta Chi house. (Just kidding.) Where could a Midwesterner go for a cheap vacation in April? Chicago! And whoda thunk it'd be warm and sunny and with streets full of surprise and relish (and not the kind they put on Chicago hotdogs)?

Wednesday

As I get older, I seem to have greater appetite for a nice view from the hotel room. Call it my own personal gentrification; I've come a long way from running down the streets of South Central L.A. It's why I go with the balcony option on cruises - there's just something electric about eat/drinking/smoking a cigar while eating up the view.

Because sometimes it's all in where you sit. Take today - if I sit in the chair beside the big window that faces east, I see the curve of the green Chicago river against the gothic, church-like Chicago Tribune building - a pleasant view made more so by the hint of blue spire in the gap next to the Tribune. It looks like a misplaced relic from a bygone age, a bit of Tolkien whimsy brought to life.

But if I sit in the middle of the window and look straight ahead all I see is an ugly tower cum parking garage. And if I sit and face west, all I see are molten modern skyscrapers and hotel high-rises.

It reminds me of how author William Least Heat-Moon describes a remodeled house in Kansas, of how it went from "grace to practicality, the commonplace absorbing the beautiful and superfluous, as the twentieth century often does to the nineteenth."

But later the sky darkens and the cars in the tower parking garage magically disappear and the skyscraper lights glow and the Westin sign sings its red and from any direction it’s not so bad.

We took the El train from O’Hare to get here. “It’s part of the adventure,” Steph said, and I agreed, though even more so when I found out a subway ride was $2 each, everything else $25 or more.

I read while she chose the better and observed the colorful urban scenery. The elevated subway is a chance to see neighborhoods far beyond the sedate Loop.

As soon as we got downtown we looked for a promising restaurant, and Ronny’s Steakhouse, established 1963, looked a likely suspect. Afterwards we walked towards Lake Michigan via the winding BP Bridge in Millenium park. It seemed like we walked as much east-west as north-south but it mattered not for the weather was excellent.

Then it was to the downtown where we wandered aimlessly waiting for a trolley car, and it eventually became evident we weren’t going to just run into one by accident. So I looked up the double-decker bus phone number at a Barnes & Noble and called to find where to meet one.

We rode past the Magnificent Mile, the home of Oprah Winfrey (whose apartment overlooks a Chicago beach that in July is “packed with bodies” according to the tour guide), Holy Name Cathedral, Blue Chicago, the Sears Tower, Soldier field and the museum area. It was disappointing only because it didn’t go to any of the neighborhoods, no authentic Polish culture for example, to the extent you can see derivative Polish culture from a swing by in a double-decker bus.

‘Round 4pm Steph went back to the hotel while I briefly hit the Art Institute and its glories. I was hypmotized by the simplest paintings, admonished by beauty.

Then hoofed it past the House of Blues, the Rock Bottom Brewery to the Holy Name Cathedral where a Mass was in process. Initially disappointed, I was transported by the IHS porthole in the center of the church dome, it looking like a giant host in the ceiling as if to signify the centrality of the Eucharist.

Thursday

Sat in the windowsill and planned the day, which officially began after with a delicious breakfast at a nearby restaurant that was, unfortunately, a chain but location is the mother of invention, or words to that effect. “Potbellies” was close by, even if the décor, which included a portrait of Robert E. Lee., didn’t exactly scream “Chicago” .

Over fresh coffee I mused aloud. “When I nuke coffee,” meaning heat it up via microwave, “it never tastes that good.” Steph affirmed that, and I was glad for the confirmation. All these years I wondered if it was just my imagination that coffee tasted worse after being microwaved and now I can rest easy.

Afterwards I headed north up to the Old Town neighborhood, past interesting architecture and an Orthodox church that had apologetic material in its sign-board, mentioning how all churches except the Roman Catholicism go back to Christ, and the Romans broke off from the Orthodox. Tried to visit the church but it was locked, proving it can’t be the One True Church. *grin* St. Michael’s was open and I explored it before heading back to the hotel.

Soon it was on to famous Wrigley field, my first trip to the ballpark gem. The weather was splendid, a very sunny 65-70 degrees. I bought a Cubs hat to shade my eyes and as souvenir. The Cubbies held it close for 4-5 innings before completely falling apart. When we left it was like 13-1.

Behind us one fan commented to another that “it’s summer boys, the ivy is growing.“ And indeed although it was a bit scraggly and pale in color compared to its typical mid-summer hunter green, it was a timeless reminder of the ballpark that changes with the season.

After the ballgame we took the train back to the Loop and had a pleasant dinner at Berghoff’s, a German restaurant that brews its own beer. Steph loved the seasonal beer, a “Solstice Wit bier with a hint of orange.” I had the Amber since they were out of Pale Ale.

Thursday night at the Art Institute there’s free admission from 5-8, so we headed there immediately after dinner and I drank in room after room of wondrous paintings. With the Columbus art museum, it always feels like “is that all there is?” while with the Metropolitan in New York it seems overwhelming. Here was an in-between.

I found Steph sitting under the tail of the huge lion statue out front. The night air was tangy and the view restful. "You’re in a risky spot there,” referring to the possibility of artificial lion poop. “Want to hoof it?” . And we did, avoiding cab fees though not foot soreness.

Friday

Friday morning felt like the first real day of vacation given that it always takes a couple days to re-awaken a sense of wonder. But in this case it was also the last. Got a seat with a view at breakfast at the hotel restaurant. Down the street there was a Church of Christ of interesting architecture and I wondered how I had missed it when walking on street level. Perhaps because it takes time to really see?

After breakfast we lazily made our way back up to the room where I languorously reading about the near magical catches of Willie Mays in his initial year.

Then we planned the day - I called the Chicago Transit to ask how to tour Chicago neighborhoods via subway, and he suggested the Brown line. I wasn’t sure I wanted to be in a subway train on such a beautiful day (third in a row, shocking for April in Chicago (if not Paris).

Steph wanted to do the Field Museum of Natural History, so we hit the trains and headed to see “Sue”, a nearly intact dinosaur skeleton some 67 million years old. Just as the heavens suggest distances untold, dinosaur bones test ones ability to conceive of time eternal. Our historical record goes back a few thousand years, which is likely as small relative to the history of the planet as our solar system is in the much larger universe. It was amazing such creatures existed, and like Christ showing his wounds to the apostles after the Resurrection, it was easier to believe in examining the arthritis on the bones, broken ribs that had healed, abscesses in the jaw. Even gigantic carnivores have reason for pity and it seems Sue lived only 27-28 years.


It was also wild to touch a meteorite, something that is not only the oldest thing in the universe, dating from about the time of the Big Bang, but that which comes from an asteroid belt off the coast of Mars, making it an object from the farthest away.

There was a large gemstone exhibit including a display on gold coins, where it said that gold coins were not just a form of hard currency but a work of art. So now I have both art and gold in the form of a couple “double eagles”.

Another exhibit showed a “what if you crossed a Chinese person with an Irishman?” and variations on that theme. Showed pictures of men and women and children of wildly disparate genetic blends. “I am what everyone will be in 2500 AD” wrote one man under his picture, which suggests that he thinks we are moving towards homogeneity. Likely in some things such as skin color but looking at the diversity of pictures, it seemed like greater variety.

The Irish and German cultures in America in the late 19th century often clashed over cleanliness issues (the Germans more so than the Irish) and language and culture, but now not at all. Is intermarriage as the great assimilator?

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It’s energizing to walk around a big city, never sure what might be around the next corner. The bright-lit theater sign lured me down a side street, and the fresh smell of gourmet popcorn lured me into a shop on that side street where I picked up some pecan-carmel crisp. Warm, and delicious as it was serendipitous.

I see little girls like butterflies in a room high above street level, performing ballet moves. It reminded me of Bill Luse's daughter makes a living doing it in this very city.

I’m often surprised in a big city how individual people seem to be, how far from wanting to fit in they often feel the freedom of anonymity and reflect it in outrageous ways. We see a guy singing and waving his arms to his ipod music as if he were Fred Astaire in “Singin’ in the Rain”. A woman clutches her stomach with both hands, grimacing in pain with tears in her eyes, right there on State street on a Friday pedestrian rush hour (or not so pedestrian as the case may be). Young women wear shorts so short or tops so revealing as to reveal a casualness, a comfort in their own skin such that it’s like they’re in their boudoir. It seems paradoxical that a large city would bring out more individuation rather than less, although with the short shorts that’s less individuation that simply the new fashion.

IN the afternoon, as precious vacation time slowly perished, I walked back from the public library to meet Steph at Potbellies. The Harold Washington library, with all due respect to Harold Washington, was a disappointment; the 9th floor winter garden was closed off for some event and the rest of it seemed like an example of modern architecture’s difficulty with creating beautiful spaces. Or, as was said of one beautiful 19th century building, “you couldn’t build that today even if you wanted to.” I was chagrined to have been conned by the library. I’d have rather just taken the brown line subway and looked out the windows, a $2.25 form of travel. Or even give me a Starbucks or local coffee shop for the smells if not the bells. I feel more writerly there, a superficial reason that ought not be discounted merely for it being superficial.

Back on the El for one last ride. I looked out the window this time, and watched the city exhaust itself until it transformed into suburb. One-by-one the riders left until a nearly empty train deposited us at the airport. I'd not packed any eczema medicine and the underside of my left knee looked like hamburger meat. It itched like crazy but I ignored it because itching, like sin, doesn't accomplish anything. And I thought about how it seems easier to avoid the "sin" of itching when real sins come more easily despite worse results. It takes very little faith to know that itching causes greater misery, but it does take some faith to see that our sins make us worse off.  When I got home I immediately applied the medicine, which immediately made it itch. But this time I attributed the itch to healing. Could I welcome the itch now, knowing every minute was a moment closer to itch-free skin? Could I not apply that to the spiritual life and know that the medicine of suffering can be similarly applied?

While at the TSA, watching all the passengers go through the security measures, I thought: “all this just because some people half-way across the world don’t like us.” The cost of hatred, though admittedly a tiny, insignificant one compared to those who died in the attacks on 9/11.

I asked a attendant there if we still had to take off our shoes.

“Everyone but the workers,” he said. A mini haha.

It seems like that practice started just after the shoe bomber was discovered. What relief he wasn't “the Penis Bomber”. Imagine having to be castrated just to go on a flight?


 










                                    

April 27, 2010

"I Was in Prayer in the City of Pittsburgh"

In the first reading from Acts the other day, I was struck by the line in Acts about how Peter said, "I was in prayer in the city of Joppa" and I suddenly wondered where Joppa is and wanted to connect it to being a "real" city in the same way Pittsburgh is a real city. Too often the obscure towns and cities of ancient Israel make it like reading "Lord of the Rings" with its Middle Earth geography. So I mentally substituted "Pittsburgh" for "Joppa" in the reading. I doubt St. Peter would mind.

April 26, 2010

Just Sayin'

Officially on vacation, which I'm celebrating with a Taddy Porter and a Sierra Pale, in that order. I'm ensconced in the bookroom listening to an '80s station. "50 thou a year will buy a lot of beer" goes the lyric to the song The Future's So Bright (I Have to Wear Shades) but 50 thou ain't what it used to be. An inflation calculator says that 1985's $50K is 2009's $100K. Never reference money in a song lest you date yourself.

This & That

My subterranean longing for poetry oft gets expressed in non-poetical activities, at least in the literal sense. For example, coffee at the bookshop with the smell of wafting ink and glue and roasted beans, or a hike in the woods with trees like censors carrying the incense of flowery scents. Rarely do I "hit the books" and directly mainline poetic prose or prose-y poetry.
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Took the dog hiking Saturday. I loved the variety of barks of the arboreal kind, some smooth and light-colored, others shaggy and craggy, still others ridged like rivers seen from a height. A favorite was garnished with a ring of green leaves as if a shiny bow on a gift.

The trees seemed to divide themselves into the straight and the crooked, the beautiful and ugly, but then I saw one beautifully straight with a crooked limb that had been incorporated into that marvelous trunk. A metaphor that God can make us, in the end, straight. And that gives hope.

The forest quiet left me thirsting for one of those St. Therese Retreat Center retreats. It's a weekend in which we play as monks, with tiny but clean rooms and thick St. Joseph edition Bibles on the writing tables. April was so busy I missed both retreats, meaning nothing till September now. The prayers at the center are frequent as a pious Islamist's. There's also the smell in the book-lined lecture room and there's the promise of all sessions being optional which means I could always steal away at any point and have the chapel to myself. So much time to think and pray and study the Bible! But I remind myself you can't become a contemplative in 48 hours. "Instant contemplative" is more oxymoronic than "jumbo shrimp". But there's that hope that all the cells of your body will, in that rareified air, be soaked with the Spirit. The times I remember best there are the moments with the ugly green Bible which becomes comely by association with that prayerful atmosphere.
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Prayed part of the Divine Hours in the 10-15 mins before Mass and so "hit the ground running" at Mass instead of feeling numbed-out for the first half. I never know for sure if I'm supposed to like the songs. If they're too schmaltzy I think I'm effeminate for liking them.I know the ice cream Haagen Daaz is okay, but not the Marty Haagen and his friend Daas.  :-)
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Enjoyed some peace and quiet reading National Review which included an interesting review of Roger Scruton's I Drink Therefore I Am by John Derbyshire. There was also a Douthat review of the film Date Night starring Tina Fey and Steve Carrol, and an ambling story by Richard Brookhiser concerning his reading of Proust. Just 3-4 pages but all gold - makes me want to dig up my old NRs and start reading them again. It seems to have fallen by the wayside.